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lie Birthday success [07 Sep 2009|12:11pm] so the birthday was pretty fun. although it could have been better but it was good the way it was.

lie Block Party / Whats in the back of my head. [23 Aug 2009|12:00pm] Cole Street had its annual block party yesterday and let me say it was effin awesome. Played some games had a lot of fun. Drank a lot, I drank so much that old feelings came back to haunt me. I think it surprised me more that it came back when I wasn't thinking about it anymore. I mean really I thought i was finally over it until I broke down n realized why I was. I dunno anymore I think I'm just to lonely but I don't wanna be that guy that will date anyone. Its getting harder to sort out what I want in a girl to the point of it all blends in to anyone that will give me a look. The thought of moving to a different city, town, or even state sounds awesome each time but I don't believe the girl problem will be solved. I think it might even get worse. Well I'm done ranting for now. I need to savange the house for left over food.

lie Love interest? [04 Aug 2009|02:21am] So to summarize this I started to have feelings for a friend. I knew it was a bad idea from the start. Maybe it was the person I like or maybe it was me. Whatever it was its probally not worth the trouble I tried for. I don't regret it for it was someone that I really care for n I would much rather have them in my life then not at all. She means alot to me wheather she knows it or not. The only thing I can do it let it be n hope one day she might realize what might have slipped through her fingers. When she realize I'll be their for her cuz she means that much.

lie Today [27 Jul 2009|01:16am] [ mood | indifferent ] this weekend has been a blast its been awhile since i had this much fun. Jon Pete and I drank some beers friday night. I had a bday party to go to but i skipped it so i could go to Alayna's party n got towz up. the room started spinning then i crashed hard. woke up on the floor n the peeps n i chilled at Alayna's til bout 1pm then pete n I left to shower and shit. then we headed over to Bryans to play some Rockband. After we had to dispart Pete n I went our seperate ways. Bored as shit Pete came back over n we played some NHL 05 kicked some major ass til the game froze on us over our huge win streak... FUCKIN PLAYSTATION!. On a mental note it was kinda weird seeing Alayna again tho I had a good time when we hung out by ourselfs it kinda bugs me also from the party.... I'm trying to stay out of relationships cuz there stupid n I don't wanna deal with the drama of them. I being drawn to them more n more and I don't know if should go for it n float or drowned... Theirs a few gals on my mind so the only thing I can do is try to sort shit out. No hard feelings dude u know its bros before hoes

lie an interesting weekend [21 Jul 2009|11:53am] Ok to start this off Saturday was my sisters graduation/birthday party. I only invited two friends to come. The one I wanted to show up did and the second invited her friend to come along and neither of them showed up. Well it doesnt matter anymore because it's done and over with. My intent for the day was to get hammered and I successfully achieved my goal lol. After I realized I didn't need to drive I started drinking beer; after the third beer it was time to hit some hard liquir. I mixed some rum n coke for myself; my first glass I made kinda strong so I could add more coke later on and it back fired because I forgot to add more coke into the glass. By then I was drunk not stupid drunk but enough to know I wouldn't walk a straight line. For my second glass of rum n coke I put alittle less rum in but enough to know it was their. After that glass I realized that I'm not a hard liquir drinker anymore because I was drunk after those two glasses. It was then where I went back to drinking beer because I wasn't gunna stop drinking but I limited myself to not drinking my beer so fast. Well to finish off the night I stayed up til 2am smashed but still up. I had a heart to heart with pete about alot of shit mostly pertaining to life, jobs, money, friends, and drugs. The next day I had a huge hangover that I got over with alittle time n food. Didn't do much the whole day but later on in the day pete, ross, and jon sivic came over n we drank a beer or two then called it anight. yesterday I sat at home again but I was doing homework while tryin not to do it. I also have been on a Red VS Blue kick to so I watched it from season 1 to season 6 (if its called that) n I guess you can call it season 7. I also had a lady come over we talked about alot of things n watched BASEketball. Found out we have alot of things in common even alot of acts are simiular. It was kinda freaky but exciting too. Today I got school classes, my game group called "The Flashers" we got a meeting every Tuesday n Thursday at 5pm, then after school hopefully hang out with pete n jon n whom ever else. Hopefully the group will like my game idea that I have to pitch since were doing a side scrolling brawler game..... like battletoads!!

lie Hacky Sack [15 Jul 2009|07:09am] Watching and waiting for the time to act. To know when to act and how to react is the formula to know. The time is right to react. With the flexibility and agility that is gained to react. The connection was right and the feelings that held back the doubt is gone. Freeing anything that is plaguing the mind is released with each hit to keep it alive. Hacky sack is repeated in rhythm in the bounce from bag off foot. Then passing all the poisons of mind in one act of selflessness to a fellow friend for their own ambition of release. Why is something so simple is exciting and cleansing in the form of a comprisable sphere of sand? Its a test of will power and endurance to keep the hope alive until... It all comes flooding back in one instant, one mistake, one miss and it's all back again.

lie Not Quite a Man, More Then a Boy [15 Jul 2009|06:47am] I am not quite a man but I am more then a boy. I lack some quailites that I would define myself as a man, but I know that I'm more then a boy. I act like a child at times though I know I'm depth then a child would be. A man should be much more then what I can give. He grows just out of my reach of understand who he is. I have out grown the boy I was but then man inside pushes me away. I see him by the gateway of adulthood waiting to let me in but will not allow me in. I have seen who I was and have left him behind. To where do I stand now lost in confusion of what is left to do. How can I walk my path of life with no path to follow? I am lost in the foliage of society with no guide to follow. Where is the man I want to be and who is the boy I left behind. Is he turning into the man that he knew he can be? TJ McNasty

lie Sleepy time update [15 Jul 2009|12:34am] Well not a whole lot has changed since my last update. the only thing that as changed is I went to school today cuz I have school every Tuesday n Thursday from 1:30pm to 10:30pm. I actually just stay at school that long but its worth staying there that long. Some of the students and yours truly have started a game group where we all thought of game ideas n started working on documents so we can make it into a flash game for our porfoilios for after we graduate from IADT. So to run this down kinda quick cuz im tired n want sleep lol. Classes; Tuesday n Thursday 1:30pm to 3:30pm, 8:30pm to 10:30pm Friday 8am to 1:30pm Still jobless Have alot of homework thats due Thursday Got to make a game document for my game group(Team RamRod)and the title of my game is called Religion Royale Religion Royale- 2D fighter, comic/toon style graphics, 6 religous characters to choose from, 4 stages to fight in, and the rest I'm still working on. well thats all you get for tonight, Sleeping Dreams Will Tell You A Tale That You Never Knew Existed In Your Thoughts. Dream sweetly T.J. McNasty

lie Too long [12 Jul 2009|01:48am] Its been a long time since i used lj. i actually kinda missed it. well to post a normal post. I went back to college at IADT for game programming and i enjoy every day im there. I am currently unemployed and it depresses me with each passing day. I have a hard time copeing with some emotional issues on relationships or lack there of. the last sentance for this post will be a nice perfect saturday to be outside and i was inside all day doing nothing how pathic am I?

lie the new update of my weird life [31 Mar 2008|12:00pm] well i decided that im quiteing pren pritit. seans trying to get me a job at capitol and i was just told this morning that i could probally get a job at bufflo wild wings. so i might get two jobs and work my ass off yes. apparently theres a glitch with my phone bill cuz i owe at&t 6 hundred bucks. fuck that. oh and one big announcement i have a girlfriend now yeah me. im a boofriend

lie Indifference. [24 Feb 2008|02:28pm] We all like to live in our little comfertzone our box. when your box starts fill with things u dont need but u like it. how do u change it? how do u leave the safty of your box to get a better one? every box that u want is just out of reach. to take that step is like your about to jump over a cliff. how can u take that leap of faith by yourself? scared as u are with everything on the line. what do u think u will be able to do? will u take your leap of faith or will u stay in your safe little box?

lie Hard Times [12 Feb 2008|06:40pm] So of course life always throws those curve balls. The only thing we can do is try to figure out how to manage when we are tossed those. In speaking of which i have to give up things i like for more important things. Also in knowing what i have to do i must find a job which i can work Saturday throu Mondays. I think ill try for a job at a gas station again. How come life is always about money and y cant things be cheaper instead of ripping the normal working persons arms off.

1 bodies lie [18 Nov 2007|11:34am] well its sunday november the 18th a couple days ago my buddy Cordy asked me if i wanted to join his band that he is starting up its gunna be a punk band. so i told him yes i will play. i havent got together with Cordy quite yet but today i am i hope. so i might realize my dream of becomeing a musicain. i dunno how far i go, but i dont even care if i never get noticed either just as long as maybe i get to play at someones birthday party or some shit like that once in awhile will deffently satisfy me

3 bodies lie [06 Nov 2007|07:19pm] so life is deffently fucked up. sometimes more then others. i decided that im not gunna date anymore. i have been hanging out alot lately so i spent alot of the money i had saved. i need a car. im about to be asked to pay for rent money. and im am sick and pissed at just about everything that happens

lie my tat poem [20 Oct 2007|11:40am] For those of yesterday! we praise your glory. for the wars you faced to the better our marrows. For those of today! we cheer you on. we stand side by side to face our fears and fight for our rights. For those of tomorrow! we paved the way for a course straight and narrow. To all of us today, to ahead, and those of the gone. we all stand united through the times of need. A family we are! The hearts of pure!

lie Fuck this life [12 Oct 2007|12:00am] so lifes pretty fucked up. work hang out party and thinking about my future. im trying to save to get a vechile and trying to save to get an appartment. other then that everything is ok and fucked up. i havent even talked to my girlfriend in 5 days what the fuck is up with that. shes got two more days and if she doesnt say anything im back to being single watch out ladies lmao. oh a brighter note sleeping with jen is fun with my mom on the computer and nightmare before christmas playing on the telly lmao.

2 bodies lie [20 Feb 2007|02:26am] well i have been sick for like a week an a half. but im all better now well thats what i like to believe. works kind of getting lame cuz i dont work enough anymore. my court date is thursday at 130pm and i still dont know how much its gunna cost me. im hopeing its going to be like 200 if its over that then im fucked. i had alot of fun at kevins this weekend jokeing a bullshiting oh and partying hahaha. well i gotta go now cuz i gotta shit bad

3 bodies lie shit thats been floating around [26 Jan 2007|04:20am] ok its been awhile. alot of shits been happening. alot of thinking of how come i dont have a girl and shit like that, but also i have come to gribs that no girl wants a "nice guy". yes it really sucks cuz nothing of this world means any sense. yes i have been drinking and yes i realize alot of shit.... everyone knows about how pete thinks he might be an asshole for hitting his exgirlfriend with a poolstick. but am i too clingy for have a place in my heart for a girl that doesnt really have the same feeling, and have been broken up for awhile cuz of distance. heres my place on it. ever since i hugged her for the first time it seemed like nothing else of the world mattered except being with her. it was like time stopped and everything seemed right. sometimes i wanna think that was love but maybe im just trying to fool myself. sometimes i like to think she felt the same way but othertimes i believe she doesnt or just puts up a front so she doesnt have to say that she really does care for me. but if she really does y would she date other ppl and fuck them if she really care for me deep inside?..... im really confussed and pretty buzzed let me know if u have any thoughts

lie [05 Dec 2006|02:01pm] so pete and i tried to be champs i failed pete successed.. 100 shots of beer in an hour. i almost did it i was 5 or 3 away from the goal.. but i threw up so i failed..oh well ill get them another time

lie snowball effect [15 Nov 2006|02:56pm] [ mood | depressed ] well lastnight was cool i jammed with my uncle made a few plans to hang out.. now im sitting at home and everything was going fine til i read someones livejournal... someone that i liked is now taken and no its not by me lol... i havent asked her out yet cuz i was waiting for christmas and have it be a nice surprise.. but i guess i dont have to anymore.. but whatever i should have figured i was gunna be single.. i guess back to the drawing board..

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